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     Cuba_va Newbie Poster Username: Cuba_va Post Number: 18 Registered: 10-2004 Rating: N/A |
Daddy…… I am a simple man, but I got feelings. Some that you would never understand. And I speak good English, I’m speaking from the heart and I mean this. Let me take you by the hand, come and walk with me, or pull up a chair, and sit and talk with me When I was young, it wasn’t fun-hun, matter of fact the story that I am about tell, its gonna have you in tears like fresh on-ions. Outside, how can I run huh? With a size eight, squeezing in six and a halfs see my bun-ions? Cant sleep right at night, with migrane headaches, and I am only 8. So how can I choose my fate? Teachers askin mama, “How come I am losing weight?” So hungry at times I wish I could chew my plate! I used to cry so much till it bruised my face All of this shit before I even knew my grace. For me, why did GOD choose this place? Tell me how can mama cook with no food in that pot? When you done and spent all the bread That we had, abusing that pot! Sometimes pops, I used to wish that your breathing would stop. The time I Cut my knee, you wasn’t there to tell me that the bleeding would stop. I know it sounds bad, but that’s how much I needed you dad. My games you never came, your games will never change, you lame, you’ll never change that’s why my last name I’ll never change. A kid with a memory like an elephant, I never forget, wit hundreds of dollars in ya pocket while your on the phone wit mama telling her you aint got it. All I wanted was twenty five cents. Some time feel you aint even worth twenty five cents! Now that I am 25 shit, tie you to a chair and give you 25 licks, if I had a tape of my life and my struggles with out ya, I’d sit you down and make you watch it 25 times shit!, And pray that it hurts, with no kleenex….. sorry daddy you gone have to use ya shirt. All yeah, mom told when she was pregnant with me, how with other women you would flirt, and how much she used to hurt. How she would cry herself to sleep, reminded me of me, I know you get mad that every time you look in the mirror, you are reminded of me I search for love for you, but I cant find it in me. I could see you walkin in the cold, and you aint ridin with me. Sometimes I wish I was GOD so when the day comes that you die I would have the power to reincarnate your life and make you come back as me I bet you then see what I mean I bet you then you see why I’m mean! You left us while we were poor Me and Mama on the bus while you riding in cars. Me and Mom its just us while you out high with the stars. I cant believe that you turned your back on us like Sadam and Gamora! Yeah you turned to stone because you Couldn’t help to look, at me and my mama And the way you left us shook You took better care of your car than you did me. Always you did you, but never would you do for me. Child support got ya, now you resenting me. Child support thrown at ya, now you getting sick of me. I guess now the dough is getting low, got you asking yourself, why you didn’t get rid of me. Until sundown I would wait with my bags packed, standin up for every car that would drive by, wishin for recognition. Another promise broken. Although you aint shit. You are the reason for so much shit. Lets see hmmm, you are the reason why my clothes don’t fit. The reason why I’m so self conscious, scared to speak around crowds, mouth staying closed and shit! You the reason why I don’t trust to much. The reason that I don’t Love. Do you know how many beatings that I took for you? Because see you were never there for mama to hit. Because of the things you did I probably wont ever have kids. Grandma and Grandpa spoiled you so youll never know what going through these changes were like…….. Still till this day, I pee on the stool, cause you were never there to show me how to aim it right So with this, you can run but oh no you cant hide, cause every time, you in front of a mirror, there I am daddy surprise!!! And you didn’t even have to say my name three times. |
