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     Kola_boof Veteran Poster Username: Kola_boof Post Number: 57 Registered: 07-2004 Rating: N/A |
I decided to pick a poem for each of the men that I like at AALBC.COM from my collection "NILE RIVER WOMAN".....and post it. Of course since that book is so autobiographical, it's dangerous taking the poems out of context. But I think these poems fit. Although I don't know Rondall, (at all), I picked one for him, too. Because this is his board. __________ FOR Sire Rondall "My Master, My Husband" (Nilotic Traditional 1997) Once there is blood involved it is out of our hands, Jabena (coffee worshipers). In the river, where the Cushite women bled a thousand years cycle. tima! the Soldier's wine ...tinting the Nile; your Orange Moon assed bareness here, my lover, where you drew us BLACK and of a lion and a lamb God has spilled his joy! (and I still drink it) here where I come (born over and over again) to be Naked with you _______ FOR ABM: "Black Beauty's Totem" (1997) I wish to find the swell of constant waters ...and the death of the locust night I wish to find the anguished heart of the blue blackened earthquake and lay my minkish head against his armoured chest. To bless him with full, swollen lips and behold his darkened portholes drinking my softened flesh...oh, but yes I wish to die as spirits then... droplets lost and swishing forever deep within my purple folds SWEET like birth and no regret __________ FOR LAMBD "Empty Arms" (2004) He is the one we should give birth to! His kiss is like Candy Candy made from rain and slush Everything I ever loved It left me Until I saw him wobbling towards me again. The hanging diaper. His big nappy water head. I am born again. UP from my corner. I am calling on the church moan. I am speaking through the slowness of patience saying He is the one we should give birth to He is my man. He is my one moment to smile. He is my everything. Even though I am alone. __________ For TROY: "The Mysteries of Dignity" (written 1998 for Ousmane Sembene) I am the future. Pregnant with God. I am invisible drowned out by the light infested by sorrow meaningless tides overwhelming annoyances (the silence) of putrid rotting dignity; its curdling milk more than whiteness could take BUT I am the future. Be it off camera. ___________ For LAMBD "BETTER ANGEL" (1999) Hurry up this way again I always miss you. I need you. In my busy-ness...I wait. Every moment. I wanted someone to cook for/to talk to. I am female--I like pain. I miss you. Making love to me. I miss your rough dark chin. I miss saying: "every gently now...I'm not that strong" I need your love...I need your arms surrounding me. I cannot sing for shit. I only feel healed...when we pray (Hugged up) _____________ For CHRIS HAYDEN "Dolphin" (During Pregnancy) On morning's fin I give birth to a new manchild Into the water--out to the sun I am naked because I have done nothing wrong I am a woman (Yes) I have Two Mouths to speak with. Between disagreements eternal Blood of fat men where they burst from life Sudan and crocodiles/Sun and blackness Undoing the death I am revolution's woman on morning's fin Penetrating the surface--diving into the womb Where my son is feasting Where I dreamt of gallant daughters; dark as the blood in eggs...yellow as straw and sudd; caroling after my mothering Black stick fingers scatching at the scalp; parting the knotted ancient proof (my natural mate) Where the sun catches my wet tail and our dreams take to feasting before we fast (inside me) ___________ For CAREY "Baby It's Cold Outside" (I Love My Man, the Remix) 2004 I never thought that I would be burned up in a fire But it's your Kool/smooth love I say it takes me so much higher ever gently now...I'm not that strong I'm a woman/Yes I have two mouths to speak with. Beauty beguiling and abstract Opening boxes...there is only water inside that fascinates the damned. I Love My Man. I remember when the Ocean first started/I want a new religion Before everything comes back Black woman; "Give birth to a new son" When you die come back to life I never thought that I would be burned up in a fire/EVERYTHING I ever loved....it left me. Baby, it's cold outside. I remember when the Ocean first started. Everything I ever loved. It left me. Baby, it's cold outside. "give birth to a new son". Open your heart...to yourself....and give birth to a new son. __________ For ABM "Long Live the Queen" Take the beauty and conform to it After all--you're nothing if you're not on the screen. The men can't smell you if you're not in the volcano. Your pussy is just wood with a bubble of molasses floating in the nostril of fishing birds. Their chirping laughter pecking at your scalp like a warm, loving Jesus. They call that ugly. To love silence and be dicked down by Christ. They feel sorry for the stump in the yard. And for girls like me who suck dick ---because I'm not a bird, and never had a NEST--- but was rather the Arrow killing the Dove as I stuck through its chest. ____________ FOR YUKIO Please note: This is a poem to "cheer" the men of Sudan in battle. "buk" is Sudan's river goddess. "KING OF THE SON" GOD is a black man but his sons are half devil For this we named it war We...who still know the names. We...who memorize the faces. We...the inward floors of the womb--where lives the garden of time. buk: protect my son let there be the Nile let there be my blood let my cattle bare him goodness from Sun and Sky I chant down father's birds protect my son stand him up! stand him up! that he and his brothers unite So that Kush rises from Ajok and my breasts feed these Kings "in her name" Our mother, the Goddess Sudan Her Black face both Sun and blood of all man. ____________ FOR Michael ASSIS (a correct spelling of ISIS) We killed our round mother Arab evil eye We killed our dark mother milky evil eye We wrapped up in the spider's web and swallowed all his flies We killed our sweet mother who believed in the sky We killed our dark mother/whose husband could fly We killed our own mother brown EVIL eye _______ NOW PLAYING they killed their own mother In the long form and short form in f-stops and artificial light In Khartoum, Athens and Tel Aviv in Cairo, Sicily South Africa and the District of Columbia, New York In jazz houses and dance clubs on basketball courts and video phantasms of paradise in Seattle, at Cambridge and California and EVERYWHERE that dark angels slid out of dark wombs. The darkest boys. They killed their own mother. _________ FOR ALL OF YOU. "Christmas on the Nile" (for my mother, Jiddi. 1988) She is mighty-mighty (and I remember her) I remember her toes piercing the bloody Nile; the glimpse of leg beneath wool I remember her blackness --so sheer and deep like the slippery hue of a charcoal panther beauty abstract and beguiling. I remember the roundness of her face, the diamonds in her eyes...and the merriment of a hair like wool: salt-jagged and knotty. On Jesus birthday; I remember the HOLY/unforgettable. | ||
| Kola_boof Veteran Poster Username: Kola_boof Post Number: 58 Registered: 07-2004 Rating: N/A |
"THANKSGIVING DAY" I make no sound, but a heartbeat I take no liberties with the devil nor do I smoke his dandruff or cut his pathways because life is much too hard and I love the slow pace of my God and the cornered grins of my ghosts--I love the act of will I savor the days of the earth I love the height of the sky I cherish every black man with an unheard sorrow because our graves are just the same and I live for the echo of my children; listen for the BOLT ----with the silent faith ----with the silent faith that they have in me. I make no sound, but a heartbeat. _______ I wrote that poem about the Black American woman who adopted and raised me, because ThanksGiving Day is my FAVORITE holiday. I love "cooking" and eating. And the poem also really tells how I feel about black men, about my responsibility as a mother and about my work. I am always so AMAZED that people see the "anger" and "meanness" in me....and never the love or grace. It's because people are weaklings and can't accept people who are GENUINE. | ||
| Cynique "Cyniquian" Level Poster Username: Cynique Post Number: 1516 Registered: 01-2004 Rating: N/A |
Well, Kola, you showed why many people react the way they do to you, when you wrote the last line of your post. It's because after singing your own praises, you become miffed if others don't reinforce your conceit. And the name-calling you resort to as the result of such indignation is usually insulting. | ||
| Kola_boof Veteran Poster Username: Kola_boof Post Number: 60 Registered: 07-2004 Rating: N/A |
How exactly have Chris Hayden, ABM, LAMBD, Michael and Yukio....reacted to me CYNIQUE? It's you and Thumper that I've been disliked by. And once you've been around ENOUGH "professional" writers, Cynique...you will find that they are MOSTLY like myself.....a) well aware of their strengths and not above pointing them out, b) totally insecure and critical of their weaknesses, and in my case, not above pointing them out.... and c) always talking about themselves. Others do it constantly, but you only PENALIZE ME....and of course, perhaps I'm just BETTER at doing it than others. The one thing I have on my side is sincerity and vulnerability. My nerves are ALWAYS.....exposed for public view. And people who REALLY appreciate and like "art" and the PROCESS should be able to discern that. But the "PETTY" folks will rain snub. And we all know that I could give a shit. | ||
| Cynique "Cyniquian" Level Poster Username: Cynique Post Number: 1519 Registered: 01-2004 Rating: N/A |
Yada yada yada. You're the one who whined about people not appreciating you. You're such a cry baby. All you want is for people to stroke you. It's always all about Kola. Get over yourself. Yawn. | ||
| Rondall Moderator Username: Rondall Post Number: 40 Registered: 01-2004 Rating: N/A |
Kola, I appreciate the insistence that you **do not know me at all**. Unfortunately my darling wife is not buying it and she is asking me questions that I am unable to answer. So after reading the poem that you dedicated to "Sire Rondall", we will now be spending our Thanksgiving holiday with a marriage counselor. P.S. I must insist that this is "our" board. As long as we play nice, be nice, and are nice we can all do our thing. Unlike a T.V. show, no one gets immunity and anyone can be voted off. | ||
| A_womon "Cyniquian" Level Poster Username: A_womon Post Number: 886 Registered: 05-2004 Rating: N/A |
Unlike a T.V. show, no one gets immunity and anyone can be voted off. Awl suky suky nah! So after reading the poem that you dedicated to "Sire Rondall", we will now be spending our Thanksgiving holiday with a marriage counselor. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!! | ||
| Brelei715 Regular Poster Username: Brelei715 Post Number: 39 Registered: 09-2004 Rating: N/A |
Kola, As someone who does not really know you, is new to the board, and partial to what others think, i beleive the reason people do not accept you is because of you. The way you come across, the things you say, the way you say it. If this board is filled with writers and they are all the 'same', how come you are the only one who comes across like this? sometimes you talk in circles, sometimes you make no sense and sometimes you seem 'crazy'. when i first came to this board i was very interested in reading your work, now i wanna read it but i am not as interested as i was before. you just don't seem as real as i thought you may have been. now that is not to dis you, not to make you feel bad, it's just honesty...you asked a question, i gave an answer. just refer back to your 'whoas me, nobody likes me and i don't know why, i'm so loving and caring but PEOPLE ARE WEAKLINGS.....' no people don't accept you because of stuff like that!!! if want to be accepted and respected, you have to accept and respect...no if, ands or buts about it...can ya dig it? | ||
| Brelei715 Regular Poster Username: Brelei715 Post Number: 40 Registered: 09-2004 Rating: N/A |
LMAO @ Rondall.....dang yo' Thanksgiving is gonna be all jacked up!!! | ||
| Rondall Moderator Username: Rondall Post Number: 41 Registered: 01-2004 Rating: N/A |
ˇˇˇBRAVO!!! I am a now a fan of Brelei715. That was exquisitely put in your previous note. And I still support artistic freedom, up until the "subjective" point that it no longer has a point. | ||
| Abm "Cyniquian" Level Poster Username: Abm Post Number: 1558 Registered: 04-2004 Rating: N/A |
Rondall, You're just co-signing for Brelei to get back into your better-half's good graces. HAHA! | ||
| Brelei715 Regular Poster Username: Brelei715 Post Number: 41 Registered: 09-2004 Rating: N/A |
haha, that was funny Abm....thanks Rondall (although Abm is probaley speaking the truth). Too Mrs. Rondall, I for real, really DO NOT know your husband. Brelei lolololololol | ||
| Kola_boof Veteran Poster Username: Kola_boof Post Number: 61 Registered: 07-2004 Rating: N/A |
Brelei715: Thanks for being honest. I truly value that and am like that myself. RONDALL: Thanks for revealing your personal feelings towards me (in your last post)... and for pointing out that my WORK (which has been published in 8 countries and praised by the N.Y. Times, Rawsistaz Reviewers and a myriad of black artists)....."has no point"...and is beyond subjective. | ||
| Rondall Moderator Username: Rondall Post Number: 43 Registered: 01-2004 Rating: N/A |
Kola_boof???? I want to cut this VERY short. I was not addressing your "work" in my reference to artistic freedom. As the statement I wrote was very specific about the subject matter. By the way, I couldn't give a **rat's gas** about where your work has been published or who has praised it (although, I did not know that Jayson Blair was doing book reviews for the Times). ***O.K. Hold up!!! Now see...that is what happens when people start to post these personal attacks.*** Kola, I am asking you to try not personalize every freekin thing that comes across this discussion board. My interaction with you has been limited, so until I get a personal impression, I will reserve any judgements, insults, snipes, etc... So just chill out and do what you do. DISCLAIMER: All statements about any and all characters in this posting are fictitious. The purpose of the aforementioned statements are not meant to be inflammatory. Any resemblance to anyone either alive or dead is purely coincidental. In other words, this posting "has no point." ;) | ||
| Kola_boof Veteran Poster Username: Kola_boof Post Number: 64 Registered: 07-2004 Rating: N/A |
Actually, Mr. Rondall...WHERE did I post a personal attack on you? I HAVE NOT. You certainly did, however, make a very clear one on me. And in fact, if you go back and read every post you've written--you've been baiting me into some kind of immature "expectation" that you have of me to act up. I posted POEMS. You may not care where my work is published, and clearly were trying to compare my life to Jayson Blair....but any 6 year old could see that you were dissing me as a person and my work. For instance...just WHAT EXACTLY...and I mean EXACTLY...would Jayson Blair and I have in common? I'm a fiction writer and a poet. Not a Newspaper man. You're an adult. You should be able to answer that without becoming uncooth. In the meantime...I did nothing on this board but post my poems, in honor of the black men on this board that I THOUGHT deserved mention and respect. Cynique has posted personal attacks here. I have not attacked anyone. I discussed my work and talked about WHY I write the way that I do in my initial post. READ THE 2 POSTS THAT FOLLOW THAT. I stated the FACTS of your post, Mr. Rondall. ANYONE HERE...can read what you said. You said that either me, my work (or both) were beyond subjective and had no POINT. You later came in to compare me to Jayson Blair? How does one not take personally? And since you and I have NO HISTORY....why would you come at me that way unless you were trying to impress others who hold some negative view and you wanted to make it clear to them that you AS WELL don't like Kola Boof? You made that clear when you PRAISED 175 for putting "Kola" in her place. Even a CHILD could decipher that, Mr. Rondall. Not one person....not ABM, not LAMBD, not Chris Hayden....posted even a minor "thank you" to acknowledge my GESTURE towards them. Wasn't that SNUB enough to satisfy your desire for Kola's blood? Yes, I do take it very personal, because I have not been disrespectful to you, have not attacked you and have done nothing but posted some very POWERFUL poetry that is published and is part of a collection of poems that has been dubbed "classic". And as a matter of FACT, ( fact and not personal jealousy)....there are several poems in the collection that are indeed considered Classic by knowleageable Scribes in the poetry community--in the U.S., England and everywhere else that the book has been PRAISED. To dislike a person's controversy, their work or their "personality" is one thing...but to engage in an unfair uncalled ROUTING is purely...to use the accurate word.... ....OBVIOUS Anyone, SIR...who reads this entire thread will see that I have been on the receiving end of the attacks from 3 different people...and that I have NOT attacked back. I let you all have your say and I acknowledged the MESSAGE you were sending. Before I could change my behavior...there were MORE attacks. And yes...my name is Kola Boof. I'm so glad that it's a memorable one....and not "run of the mill". I am chilled, darling. And got my feelings HURT--just as you would like, by everyone. I won't post anything on your board, Mr. Rondall, and I apologize for trying to share my work with any of you. | ||
| Rondall Moderator Username: Rondall Post Number: 44 Registered: 01-2004 Rating: N/A |
Okay, but... | ||
| Lambd "Cyniquian" Level Poster Username: Lambd Post Number: 604 Registered: 01-2004 Rating: N/A |
I really don't understand any of this, but Kola Boof, I thought you knew how I felt about your poetry. If you need my appreciation for everyone to see, then by all means have at it. Thank you sincerely for including me in your latest poetry posting. I am indeed honored. I am confused when it comes to figuring you out, Kola Boof. On one thread you denounce me for no apparent reason and on the next thread you are dedicating poetry to me. You are definitely a strange one, Kola Boof. By the way, I checked out your website and that two was impressive...along with your book, "Flesh and the Devil"...along with your poetry...along with your gigantimelons. Now that you are single, you should be able to press those super-sized milkduds up against me as much as you want without feeling like you are promising something you can't deliver. Hey Kola, Got Milk? | ||
| Lambd "Cyniquian" Level Poster Username: Lambd Post Number: 605 Registered: 01-2004 Rating: N/A |
That 'two' was impressive? | ||
| Lambd "Cyniquian" Level Poster Username: Lambd Post Number: 606 Registered: 01-2004 Rating: N/A |
Those 'two' were impressive? | ||
| Abm "Cyniquian" Level Poster Username: Abm Post Number: 1563 Registered: 04-2004 Rating: N/A |
Kola, "How Can You" I thought that I were done, Through, Over, Kaput, Oh cold death set me free. So why remind me I am man? Can I not simply be alive Pretend that I might thrive Betwixt neither time nor passionate possibility. What was it I did do, That reminded you, Of more. When I wallow down, Bang my head upon the squalid ground How can you dare even to look at me? BTW: Thanks for your poems.  |
